I Couldn't Sleep

So I watched this at 3 in the morning. Torn between a dream I've had since I was a child and the person I feel like I could love for the rest of my life. There's no reason to be torn - I could have both, but something tells me we're not ready for that.
Me leaving would mean us being apart for 2 more years at least, and it's not as simple as me leaving for 2 years and then returning. I'm moving - for good. New York is my dream - the next chapter in my life. I'm so afraid to turn the page because I feel like he won't be there.