I Was Just Thinkin...

I was just thinkin that I have been missin you for way too long...
I'm tired of postcards, especially the ones with cute dogs and cupids
I'm tired of calling you, missing you, dreaming I've slept with you
Don't get me wrong I still desperately love you
Inside this weary head I want us to love just instead
But I was just thinking and thinking, merely thinking
I think about long distance rates instead of kissing you babe
And time is running me still
If I wait for you longer my affection is strongerI was just thinking - I was just thinking
Baby I'm sinking, merely sinking
Teitur

I was doing better...about missing him that is. Not that I didn't think about him, but it wasn't constant, and it wasn't an ache - merely a thought every now and then about where he was and what he was doing. Then tonight at Amy's we were listening to music he would have liked. I needed his help on Trivial Pursuit questions. Driving home I turned up the music and sang really loud, trying to ignore the fact that he wasn't with me even though I so desperately wanted him to be. It's cold and a little lonely...on nights like these I would love to drive to his dorm and curl up in his tiny bed...sleep until noon and order bagles from Paul Bunyan Sub Shop. Lay around in pajamas and watch movies until I convinced him I absolutely had to go...I want somebody to give me back the beginning without losing what we've learned from being apart...to give us the comfort of being near each other without losing the independence we get from the miles between us...I want to surprise him with notes on his door and cookies after a bad day, but most of all I want to be able to hear this song and not cry.