Cheese Curds, Jousting, and Tears

Good weekend - can't decide how I feel about being back. Spent the weekend in Eagan, went to the Ren Fest - had a blast but left exhausted. Have a bruise on my hand where Brandon hit me with his sword while fencing - I lost but it's okay - he had to get down on his knees and beg me to forgive him :) Today we sat around in our pj's and watched football. My plan was to leave at 3. At 3:45 he put his arms around me and said "I've decided you can't leave." "Okay," I said. At 4:15 I drove away - tears streaming down my face thinking damnit, I cried again. When did it get so hard to be without him?