Feel like a captain
Sailing out to sea
And all I carry
Are these memories
The ship is sinking
And there's no way home
And it's got nothing
No it's got nothing to do
With the realization
I'm losing you
And all the people
That I know
They all tell me
Just goes to show
That no matter where you are
You're still alone
Bob Schneider

Actually it's got everything to do with the realization that life as we loved it before we came here is over.
Tonight we sat around vented and cried and ate pizza and talked about why it's so hard to get over people in a new city. We're the ones doing what we've always dreamed of doing. We're strong and independent and changing the lives of our kids. We're getting Master's degrees and living in this incredible city but at the end of the day we're....alone.
I've never felt as alone as I do here, and we're all leaving people whose lives go on very easily without us. He still has people physically there for him at the end of the day. His routine is familiar, his hangouts routine and his life just as it was, only minus me, which doesn't seem to bother him much. My life is completely different and my search for consistency leads me back to him, even if for nothing more than friendship, only to find out that he's moved on.
It's so hard to understand why THEY aren't the ones missing US instead of the other way around and the only thing we find comfort in is the knowledge that we're not the only people going through this complete life change.